Exhausted and energized.
Medicated and caffeinated.
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Direction unknown, there’s not much doing.
The next right step is perpetually brewing.
Two separate paths both mean so much to me;
I’d take the one for you, the other for we.
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Show up daily, do good work, get a weekly check; that’s how I was taught.
Make the calls, build the trust, earn it yourself; that’s harder than I thought.
There’s so much to learn—electronic systems and tech–my mind cannot grasp.
‘Which one will pay the rent?’ is my default inner-ask.
When I quiet my mind and shift my view,
confidence speaks in the silence
I gain a clearer sense of what to do.
False beliefs and excuses mask a possible truth
Resting beneath the foundation of lack that was laid.
Forcing a choice from an emotional place,
Fear wakes up and little progress is made.
Where do I focus? What more do I need…to succeed?
More experience? Stronger intuition?
Confidence knows I have all that I need!
What in my subconscious is blocking fruition?
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When I quiet my mind and shift my view,
I gain a clearer sense of what to do.
When I’m doing my thing, when I’m in the zone,
I don’t give a damn about the unknown!
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I know my personal service is true,
Faith tells me it’s what I’m meant to do.
But Doubt needs assurance of regular pay,
So Fear grabs the wheel and steers me away.
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When Confidence soars, all in the world is right!
Doubt gets a job and gives up the fight.